Posted by Caper on June 3, 2004, at 9:29:11
In reply to Re: warning: if paracetamol is Tylenol..... » Caper, posted by Impermanence on June 3, 2004, at 0:07:49
Hi Impermanence,
You're right about the tylenol thing: there is regular tylenol that anyone can buy, but once codeine is added it becomes a Rx drug (Tylenol #3 or #4). Just wanted to make sure you protect your liver. At my last detox the doctor told me two of my liver enzymes were ever so slightly abnormal- not a good sign. A warning to me I think, especially about the hard alcohol. Vodka really did a number on me!
As for the suicide attempts, yes we were both lucky. My belief, when I'm in my right mind, is that we do not really wish to die, we just don't want to feel/live this way any longer. What we have to remember though is that what we seek through suicide- peace, eternal sleep, oblivion- we won't find because we'll be DEAD. We won't be around to have whatever we sought and will also leave our loved ones to total devastation.Thanks for the info on the med you use. I'm always eager to improve my "English". *smile*
As far as the depression at such a young age, I think a lot had to do with being the "healthy child" with two diabetic siblings plus severe shyness. I was the "good girl", the one the parents never had to worry about, so they never did. I had straight A's, gave no problems whatsoever to my parents so they didn't really notice me much at all.
They failed to realize that by 14 I was starving myself to death until the school gym teacher educated them on anorexia. I'm 5 ft. 6in. tall but weighed about 95 pounds. Even after their "alert" they just told me to start eating better and assumed their "good girl" would do so. I was 19 before I kicked the anorexia, which I think is just another form of addiction.
With the alcohol, I drank steadily every day for nine months while living with my family and I swear no one would know even now if I hadn't confessed. I guess I just felt ignored because I was such an "easy" child- the brothers got all the attention. Not that I'm blaming my parents, they are good parents and did the best they could.
I also agree with you regarding being "ready" to kick our addictions. One thing that's helping me a little is exercise and attention to diet. Also I'm taking thiamine (Vitamin B1 I think) and folic acid supplements. Supposedly they help reduce cravings a bit and help make up for the typical alcoholic malnutrition. I'm trying to eat better too. I'm hoping attention to total health will lead to a decrease in the drinking.
Wow, I've really babbled on and on and on. I thank you for your posts though. I really like hearing from you, whether you are down or up. If you ever want a more private chat/vent/whatever my e-mail here is Caper@playful.com.
How are you doing now?
Very big hug,
Caper
> Hay Caper, over here you can buy paracetamol / codeine tablets under many brand names without prescription. They help mainly for migraine. A quick serch on google gave me different ingredients for Tylenol, some sites said it uncluded codeine some diden't, I think it might differ depending on what country you live. Anyway I have no experience with this particular drug.
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> I see you're no stranger to suicide yourself, it's lucky you got sick in time hun (depending on your mood lol). I was found unconscious not long after I took that overdose and rushed to hospital where my stomach was pumped, so we're both lucky gits!!!! (depending on our mood lol).
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> I'm sure your "recent traumas" being addressed could save you alot of future detox Caper, therapy is the best solution. I am saddened to here you've been suffering depression since the tender age of 7, that is just not right. Whatever about having problems as an adult, no child should have to suffer depression at such a young age. I am here if you ever feel like sharing your thoughts on why you felt so down so young.
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> I ment what I said about us getting through this, we really will, just believe in yourself and the world is your oyster. YOU CAN do anything if you really put your mind to it. I think both of us arent really ready to live the sober life, it takes time. I said before; you/we have to truly want to give up before we actually do.
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> You asked what bromazepam is, it chemical name is the same in the u.s. It's a benzodiazepine. The Brand name by Roche over here is Lexotan, in the U.S. I think it's Lexotanil. It's effects are the same as Xanax but with a longer half life.
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> Warm hugs xxx
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