Posted by catmint on May 4, 2004, at 10:07:55
In reply to Re: Meds and Marijuana- Am I OK?, posted by Impermanence on May 3, 2004, at 19:16:52
>>>>Anybody with psychological problems is asking for trouble smoking something thats part hallucinogenic.
yea, I think it's true in a way. I'm already a paranoid person and of course weed makes it worse. I'ts also like a gateway drug for me, I start to self-sabotage, drinking, cheating on my boyfriend, crazy messed up states in my head, can't relax around people, annoying them with my pressured speach, talking to srangers, having that look on my face that shows I'm fucked up inside.
Yesterday, I really wanted one of my friends Xanax, cause I forgot my Ativan. She was out, so I didn't take any, just smoked more pot and cigarretes.
All my friends smoke, they can handle it I guess, I get really wierd, freak out, have crying spells, hate my life, want to commit suicide. I'm more insecure, not exercising.
I don't know how to quit. Narco anonomous people would laugh if I said my problem was weed. I'm thinking about going back to AA, just for the support of people.,
Northern California is where I live and the pot is really potent here, I should only smoke a little bit, but no! I have to smoke a few bong hits and I don't know why I can't' control myself.
Thanks for reading
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