Posted by man_oh_man1977 on April 28, 2004, at 0:10:52
Hi Gang,
Just looking for a little moral support whilst I am breaking a love/hate affair with drugs and drug abuse that has gone on since I was 12, lasting until now (26). I am using Rational Recovery (the Book) to guide me through this transition, as the 12 step movement is not for me!
I am a creative professional (graphic designer and musician) and here I am at this late hour trying to compose a piece of electronic music. It seems to be going nowhere, fast! It used to be I'd stay up all night smoking grass, popping pills and snorting blow - all in the vain illusion that it was enhancing my creativity. And sadly, I feel that it did. Now, I am frustrated with my work, and am scared that I've totally messed up my ability to "create". I tire so easily, my juices seemed to have stopped flowing and I care so little for the endeavors for which I used to take so much pride in.
If anyone out there is going through similar creative experiences, or has transcended the drug induced creativity blockgage, please post. My life is so messy, drugs are not an option but I rely upon my artistic side to get me through. So, the long and short of it: Help!
Man-oh-man
P.S. Ground, I hope you continue to feel better. If through my example you can see that this stuff catches up w/ you... it sure does!
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