Posted by TRACYANDDEANA on December 5, 2003, at 10:57:23
HI,
I AM 33 YEARS OLD AND I HAVE BEEN TAKING ADDERAll FOR ABOUT 5 YEARS. AT FIRST IT WAS A WONDERFUL DRUG FOR ME. IT OPENED SO MANY DOORS AND I REALIZED SO MANY THINGS ABOUT MYSELF AND MY LIFE THAT I NEVER REALIZED BEFORE; HOWEVER, I FEEL THAT THIS DRUG IS NOW MAKING ME PARANOID AND WEIRD.IT IS LIKE MY PERSONALITIY IS GONE, I AM DEPPRESSED, AND IT SEEMS LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF ANYMORE. WITH OUT IT I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING BUT SLEEP, AND I AM AFRAID THAT IF I STOP TAKING THE ADDERRALL I WILL GO BACK TO MY VERY IMPULSIVE, AND DISTRUCTIVE BAHAIVIOR; ALTHOUGH,THE ADDERRALL THAT HELPED ME BECOME LESS IMPULSIVE, AND THAT HELPED ME BECOME ALL THE THINGS THAT IT USED TO HELP ME WITH, IS NOT HELPING VERY MUCH ANYMORE. IT IS ALMOST LIKE IT IS MAKING ME WORSE IN THOSE ISSUE AREAS OF MINE. I AM VERY AWEAR OF MY STRANGE BEHAIVIOR, BUT I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO.I NEED SOME KIND OF DIRECTION ON WHERE TO GO FROM HERE. I AM AFRAID TO TELL MY DOCTOR, BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT HIM TO JUST TAKE THE ADDERALL AWAY.I DO NEED SOMETHING ELSE THOUGH. I AM AFRAID IT IS MAKING ME CRAZY AND I WANT TO BE MY OLD SELF AGAIN. IF I CAN REMEMBER WHO MY OLD SELF IS!
poster:TRACYANDDEANA
thread:286808
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