Posted by katia on November 15, 2003, at 15:23:50
In reply to Re: botte of red ..bottle of white, posted by krazybirdlady on November 15, 2003, at 15:08:41
> thank you katia and justyourlaugh...it is very nice to talk about this. i do think that the ssri removed my inibitions and fears enough to do just what i might have years ago if not for the "perfect person" persona i tried to keep. Won't go there though. as far as bi-polar (shudder)..i'm afraid to go there although there have been times when i seem vaguely reminiscent of my father. shudder again...as for another ssri, if the first one (which i don't take anymore) did this, then what will the next one do? Heroin abuse?? LOL. i have to admit that the ssri made me feel unafraid for the first time in my life and that was a wonderful feeling, but the cost...still got to work on the "perfect girl" syndrome, i guess. sorry for the ramble, but i am at an impasse and not sure which way to turn at this point. thank you for listening and no wine today....
If you had that reaction to an antidpressant and bipolar is in your family, you may just keep that in the back of your mind thru'out your treatment. I was on antidepressants for a year (5 different ones) and they just made me either hypomanic or a zombie. didn't do anything for depression. I just spun out of control. Finally after a year, I was diagnosed as Bipolar II/Mixed. it's not manic depression (BPI). if you want to know more, there are posts in the archives or go to www.psycheducation.com and read more about it.
I just found it odd that you didn't drink when you were unmedicated and fully in your "disorder", but when given meds you drank. it just sounded familiar to me as hypomanic.
just something to chew on.
katia
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