Posted by platinumbride on September 30, 2003, at 15:30:26
In reply to Re: klonopin and neurontin, posted by tenor42 on September 30, 2003, at 11:23:56
> PB,
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> Interesting....I am in a similar situation. I too am an opera singer and am feeling that ticking of the clock. I am an Alcoholic (but not really drinking much these days because....) and have a bit of a Heroin habit. Just did detox but am using again...But not a lot. I NEED to kick totally. I am also switching from Lexapro to Paxil (anyone do this before?) and I also take Wellbutrin SR (who doesn't?) What is it about us performers and substance abuse/addiction/depression/anxiety...? Sometimes these traits can help me (on stage for example....emotional memory...so on) but in my life proper....it's not so good....comments? IDeas?
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> -tenor42Tenor...
I, for one, am not YET on wellbutrin LOL... I have been...didn't do much. I am surprised you are if you have anxiety issues, but I am not your shrink :)
You know, I think that deep down, some of us are just so disenchanted with the way things are. I, personally was encouraged by everyone all of the time....oh, well, except for the people who did the hiring for the really big and important companies and big managers. We "artistic, sensitive types" see the injustices in the world and close an eye to them. We have compassion, but we (at least I) always pushed the pain I felt at seeing the suffering of others to the back of my mind and forced myself to concentrate on my goals. I don't know where you live, but I was born in NYC. The pain there is so accute....you see it everywhere. No respite. Any person who has an ounce of compassion is going to need to retreat.
I don't know how you feel about this, but performing, while I love it, was never what I thought it would be...disappointment....
or, are you not getting to perform as much or where you want to? Do you "use" when you are performing? Does smack swell your chords??? FOrgive me for sounding like a singer lolEver listen to Pink Floyd's The Wall? Aside from the mysogyny and the WWII stuff, there is a message that hits home for me about "the bleeding hearts and the artists....and when they've given you their all some stagger and fall, after all, it's not easy...banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall" I am quite sure i got the last words right. I am sure I will hear about it if I didn't!
It has become a quagmire for folks like you and me hasn't it? I bet you never thought you'd be here.....I surely didn't.....
PB
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