Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 4, 2021, at 22:58:36
past couple days have been difficult, i've been vaping - and it's much cleaner than ciggerettes, but the vape coils turned black and they got in my lungs. Now i'm having breathing problems. This ... you know when you feel your only person on the planet feeling, that even when you go out with people. I've been having ... well, i don't talk much to people except a close friend i've known for 10 years. She's a sweet girl and always listens to me. But past weeks, i don't know what im going to do in life, and i've wrote this same messege before. I rather write someone a inspirating messege that will save them on judgement day, and not go to hell. I write about that all the time on faith board. But ... it's just these past weeks, aloneness, not wanting to talk to peope because even if i talked it wouldnt make a differnce. It wouldnt take away the pain, and i've met people and talked, and got to know them. Then it just...the friendship fades, so even writing this and someone reading i don't' want them to get tired, and leave. I rather save people souls, and telling them about hell, because their soul is valuable, we can't let them go to the underworld
Anyways....the only person on the planet feeling, even when your with people, it's like you can see throjugh them, almost like a ghost because they can't help you, or take the pain away. It seems strange my life should end like this, but hope is the only thing that I hold on too. All this stuff going on right now, it's dreading. I rather deal with things on my own than burden someone. Thank you for reading, and blessed be to you
r
"There comes a time in your life where you have to choose to turn the page, write another book, or simply close it"
-Shannon L Alder
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