Posted by alexandra_k on November 8, 2019, at 16:15:14
In reply to Re: scalability, posted by Honore on October 19, 2019, at 12:05:47
I am sorry to hear you have been very disappointed recently.
I hear you on being pleasant. Unpleasant people are unpleasant to deal with. Nothing worse than being stuck dealing with unpleasant people.
On the other hand I have been pleasant to philosophers for years and years and years and they really started to take advantage. It did get to the point where I would go to seminars / conferences / talks and see people who I took to be old friends and they would say about their new job and I would ask 'how is that?' and they would say 'they pay me'.
They pay me.
That is what they would say to me.
And I saw that yes, they pay them. This is just a job to them. They do it becuase they are paid to do it.
Why am I at the seminar / conference / talk. They don't pay me.
They don't provide me with a living wage.
They take money from me to subsidise / further them.
I'm not a fan-boy.
But I was paying them.
So...
Time for me to be less pleasant.
I was being taken for a fool.
I needed for different people to see me. To see that I am pleasant.
That has been hard. Those at the lowest level trying to keep things hidden for themselves / their own advantage.
I suppose it is about doing time before being beamed out. For whatever reason. Jealousy. I suppose. I don't know. Awful people. I suppose it is about chasing / scaring people away so they can continue to live like Kings of their rubbish.
Sigh.
I will be okay, I expect / suppose.
I hope things feel better for you, soon.
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