Posted by alexandra_k on October 14, 2018, at 8:47:06
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, posted by alexandra_k on September 29, 2018, at 0:35:51
I think I am not going to go to talks, anymore. I feel like I've been taken for a chump. Other people get paid to give talks. Other people get paid to go to talks. People go to talks who are progressing on qualifications that will position them to be paid to give and / or go to talks.
I don't get paid. So... Why should I go? Why should I expend energy and effort listening to people... Rehash work they did 10+ years ago? Why should I be expected to not ask questions because other people decide to exert their power to ignore me? Why should I be expected to ask questions because nobody else has a question and so it's just uncomfortable?
The whole thing feels like an awful sham of a facade. There is no spirit of inquiry. There isn't even all that much in the way of quality work done... It's just a whole pile of sh*t for people who... Uh... F*ck even knows. I don't know who got to be in charge or why they got to be in charge or what they think they're playing at... It's just all too awful for words.
If they wanted me to feel differently about it they really should have thought twice before treating me like disposable garbage. Never mind, I'm sure there are plenty more lining up to do whatever it was they got out of me...
Whatever.
Awful people.
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