Posted by SLS on September 1, 2018, at 7:32:18
In reply to I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 6:35:26
> I am having some issues. Almost everyone in my highschool class witnessed my psychosis and mania and i was convinced that i was raped by my father. So i wanted to exercise revenge and i thought id do that by telling everyone. I guess i also wanted help.
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> So now when i run into these people i get really uncomfortable. I cant imagine showing up at a class meeting or something like that. I guess some people are scared and others will make fun of me. Or both.
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> This was 6 years ago but still. Nardil turned me into a maniac and everyone witnessed it while nobody knows that i was kind of high on a drug.I can relate to your experience only slightly. I became psychotic in association with Nardil when I was 30. Although I was working at the time, very few people saw the worst of it. After the psychotic episode remitted, I was very embarrassed and did not want to see anyone. I can only imagine how much worse things were for you. High school was a bad time for me, as I'm sure it was for some other people. I was very conscious of how I compared to others with regard to popularity and acceptance. Although a more severe depression emerged at age 17, it was not immediately obvious to others. If I were to become psychotic in high school, I don't know how I could possibly show my face again. As it is, I don't want to see the people I went to school with. I am embarrassed at how little I have accomplished in life and my limited finances. I never went to any of my high school reunions. What would I say?
- ScottSome see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.- George Bernard Shaw
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