Posted by rjlockhart37 on February 4, 2015, at 22:39:53
my brother has been in my thoughts alot, want to see him again, expet this time where in a new decade, .... should or should not i try to open a past chapter....not sure if this is best place to tell this, maybe another website.......as over 20 years ago, so thats time is history, not gonna sit and ponder of soething that 20 years out of date......
i've met mentors, and big borther like figures through out my life, and they all tell me the same thing my real brother used to tell me, stop thinking of the magical cure and stop thinking so much, it's suprising but that is a obvious thing they tell me the same thing......but the thing is as someone grows they can learn new ways to think, and not stay in the same sandbox of earlier periods of their life......thinking can change, feelings can change, everthing changes, the only thing that is keeping me thinking of my brother from the past is memories, it doesnt matter much if you rerember whatsomeone says, but always rerember how they made you feel.....
vinger thinking about trying to restore, and not knowing if im going to open a box of chocolates and work out wonderful or open a can of acid that will tear me up more if i try to go back
does anyone ahve anything to say about this? i have to do something, you know all the sentimental things that really are silly to think about eat away at me, because really i am too sensitive, and i've tried couple times to make my heart cold.....have no feelings, cold blooded, but ... thats not who i am
open up a can of acid or box of chocolates......roll the dice
rnot a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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