Posted by Phil on June 30, 2014, at 14:39:03
In reply to Re: call pharmacy, posted by Partlycloudy on June 30, 2014, at 12:23:56
hey, if i can write and people tell me some of it is good does that mean i'm a bipolar whiz kid..i don't think so. one wrong med could stop me in my tracks. i'll drop it like bad gf. therapy today psychiatrist tomorrow..feel sorry for them. two therapy sessions i leaned over sideways and almost went to sleep on the couch. at 5 today it might be #3. i'm walking death after pissing friends off and trying to explain what i didn't know myself. but all they wanted for me to do is go away. i can't believe how fast and far i've dropped. but, but, but, but. get help phil--go away. you know, friends. even though they know that this is beyond my control, they give up and run. beat my head against the wall. last therapy session i said i must look like hell. he said you look a helluva lot better than the last session.
i was in group--the only one taking meds. it wasn't a support group, it was nail you on you sh*t group. they crucified me. one guys issue was running stop lights. i thought, hey that's a great idea. at the last few minutes of the session a guy i liked said why is everything about you, you, you? he was on his 9th year of group. after the session i went to the bathroom. he walked in and said great minds think alike. i didn't say a word--never went back. one lady always sat across the small room from me. she was scared to death literally because i reminded her of her ex slacker bf. he was even in the slacker movie. every session she freaked out. i went to my regular therapy and the therapist said i've met her boyfriend, trust me, you aren't him. the girl always wore a tight dress pulled up to her waist. i thought i was going crazy.
i read the book "group" then and it was fascinating. rock star, high performing people in ny. theater, etc crazy as hell. i totally recommend that book. i loaned it to the therapist and others. never got it back. my life is calling but i still can't find it.
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