Posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:41:52
i think i'm a little bit burned out...
things have been going really well this semester with respect to my working. i haven't at all been caught up in the horrible procrastination that plagued me around my thesis. so that has been... wonderful.
but failed labs... then lots of down time recovering from those, yeah. then that failed test... well... i didn't fail it... but only just passed it. which... hurt. rather a lot, actually. working really hard but still not being able to do equations. like every one needs a new math fact that i didn't know... every one... so work as i do i can't do any of them...
only it really is not that bad. lots of the exam questions will be conceptual. definitions. or little bits i can do. balancing equations or identifying the hydrocarbons or saying which is most negative or drawing a face centred cubic packing unit (ffs - for reals???) so... if there are a few questions... say... 10 marks worth... of how many grams of propane you need to cook a pig with x specific heat capacity in a perfectly insulated oven at constant pressure... or whatever... and i simply can't see how it fits into the equations i've got, even... (because i don't f*ck*ng well know all the f*ck*ng different ways there are of rearranging equations) then... whatever.
sigh.
i'm just feeling a little burned out... i think it honestly has been good for me to have taken some time off from things. to have a half day in court tomorrow even. sigh. something a bit different to do...
i'm a little worried that i'll get into such a state about it beforehand then when i'm actually in the exam i'll just hit my limit and give up. like... f*ck it. i don't even care anymore. i can't even... think about it properly. just... had enough. i might... i need to think about something nice i can do for myself on friday night. something... relaxing... i need to nurture myself through this...
animal biology next semester. that will be fun. i'll be good at it. i will. it's all going to be okay.
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