Posted by alexandra_k on May 22, 2014, at 16:13:27
In reply to Re: fear, posted by alexandra_k on May 19, 2014, at 1:50:51
i have a crush. which is... silly, really. if my emotions were less intense i could probably just enjoy it. it is a feeling of... being alive. and it isn't painful, exactly. only it almost is painful to me. it makes me feel... inadequate. very much. i can't... be light and playful. it isn't in my vocabulary. even if he was interested (which he probably isn't), available (again, probably not) and so on and so forth... he would never know it from the way i behave... or... he'd just be scared off from this freak... or... he'd tire of it fairly rapidly over time. best to... stay away. hang back. this too shall pass :(
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