Posted by sleepygirl2 on February 19, 2013, at 14:28:42
In reply to Re: I can't handle this life » sleepygirl2, posted by Dinah on February 19, 2013, at 13:16:21
Well, today I decided to put air in my tires. I was happy to find free air.
So, I thought, "I'll do this one thing.", better to light a candle than curse the darkness, right? Blah, blah, blah
And then I see that my front tires are in serious need of replacement, and I can't afford that.
Then I think about how my car is dirty, how I don't measure up to other people, about how their cars and homes are so neat, maintained and tidy.
And then I think, "I'm not even at work today, and I'm freaking out. How can I go and deal with that too?" And I'm afraid of getting laid off, from a job I should be grateful for, even when i feel incapable of doing it and overwhelmed. And what is wrong with me? Why am I always behind?
And I'm trying to get estimates for work on my mother in laws house, because I live there, and I can't handle seeing the effects of neglect and decay everyday.
God, the essentials?
Today, ok.
Thinking....
I will make the bed.
I would say 'go to group', but that's just another self indulgent thing I do like therapy and meds.
Ugh.... Sorry
I'm a bit... Overwhelmed.
It'll pass.
Thanks, Dinah
On the other hand, you have different fingers.
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