Posted by rjlockhart37 on January 29, 2013, at 20:46:42
i was watching touched by an angel just a couple of min ago...this case where a kid had down syndrome and their parents didnt want it because down syndrome people....they have to have special attention, it was so sad watching this because they considered giving him. The husband said he would never be a father to something that was mentally retarded. couple times that happened with me...random people i met, and of course i had thoughts of rage of what to...but i've had to contain the anger...just choose to not associate with those people
Anyways, but but people i've met in parts my life....i do have some disabilites, but i try my best not let people know them. I can act normal but when i go to bed i know all i wanted was to be normal and people have ridiculed me, said things in secret...and played quiet games with me. I do have ... i've been diagnosed with some kinda of aspergers....but i don't have all the symptoms....and i would never let that be labeled to me....some people who are prejudice to retarted people, they look down and treat them like sh*t, sometimes make comments in public of how dumb they are....i've had it happen to me....the only people that have understood me was my aunt, and couple of my friends, my mother...besides that i have to be on guard and quick to thinking, be witty and fast...to stop people from thinking im stupid.
its awful people laughing, but like i said hate burns inside and makes me want to change and become vary powerful....not do stupid things like hurt someone psychially, or dumb revenge tacktics....its just growing out of that state of being underdog and kicked and laughed at that burns me to change....i want one day to do that to the people who did it to me...
Anyways....no pity party, no boo hoo spells, im just mad....not to do stupid things, but to grow out of this nasty state im in....i forget to do simple things, things normal people would get in 5 min of learning....
im discusted with my life right now...well some parts of my whole i wished never happened. No urgent reason to get alerted by reading this....this is my life....
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
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