Posted by Bryn B on July 9, 2012, at 19:23:30
I started seeing a new pdoc last week. He added on 300 mg of lithium (my first time taking it) to my 20 mg of lexapro. I'm finally out of a horrible depressive episode, but I'm still very lethargic & have no energy.
I'm not working (due to last episode), don't have insurance and have spent a lot of $ and energy on doctors. I don't know how I feel (definitively) about new doc, but he was highly recommended by someone in the field, so I'm going to give it some time. I've gone to therapy in the past, but truthfully did not like it or find it helpful, so I certainly don't want to spend $ on it now.
So my mood is now ok, but I'm really anxious just thinking about how much money everything has been costing, whether or not I'm seeing the "right" doc, which meds I'm taking, possible side effects, and the possibility that I'll have to be on meds for the rest of my life. (I found out during a washout last year that I couldn't be off meds.)
Anyone else feel overwhelmed by everything?? The whole process?? Ive been dealing with this for years. It consumes me. I wish I didn't need meds. I'm exhausted and confused...
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