Posted by Beckett on January 21, 2012, at 10:11:32
In reply to Re: New Year,but am I willing? » Phillipa, posted by gadchik on January 21, 2012, at 9:09:35
I think it is difficult to discontinue a medication because of fear. Phillipa knows how I have discussed getting off X. Ihess able o discontinue opiates, and that was tough. I was afraid of pain. But I drew my resolve, and I knew I would be better off, and so it must be done. I have never reached that resolve with benzos. I have never been entirely convinced I'd be o.k. So that is my fear. I have had umpteen meds come and go, but the X or K (mostly X, only K for two years) has remained. Low dose. I feel stuck. I was thinking that as long as I am deeply fearful, I will not have the resolve. So jeez, I am still not ready. Instead I think things like 'k is better than x'. Then I get restless and think about changing. No wonder I come across as such a kook to my shrink.
Look at the stars/
See how they shine for you/
And everything you do/
And they was all yellow..../
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