Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 16, 2012, at 17:09:02
I already posted this on the main board, but I have to talk about it. I've realized that most of my problem solving skills is very low. This explains why I am so sad because I don't take the inciative to get help from social services. I just don't know who to call. I have no idea what I really need. I don't need to stay anywhere especially a hosptial. DARS got the test results back and they said in the report that I can't be in any competive employment and that I need to apply for social security disablity. I don't really think I need social sec. checks but it would be helpful to have some money come in.
I watch the same thing's over and over on youtube and then get bored with it. I need to expand myself but I feel like I need someone to help me to do this, I have friends but I never call them. I stay cooped up in the house and feel safe, but in reality its very unheathly and its causing my mind to decline. I need to do things that will shapren my mind. Can I be open to share things and maybe have someone mentor me??
When I was younger I wanted to be many things that I know I can't reach without having some help of some kind. I wanted to be envolved in the goverment and I had ideas of moving and then only to find that I have done nothing with my life to improve it and choose to stay cooped up and safe. I never went to college. This was all a choice, and I choose the path that I am in right now. So don't feel sorry for me at all, this wasnt any accident it was a choice. And now I'm trying to learn how to undo my choices and change them and Im going to need help.I hate to post things that obligate people to say something. This isnt a life or death sitation. It just a very barren feeling that I have lost the road to living a life. That's the problem, now I need to find a solution. Please don't waste your time with a long post, its not that I don't want you to post something that's from logic and wisdom. It's the fact that I lose hope and even if I read a long post with much wisdom and resources in it. I just don't even listen to vital suggestions because my hope is gone.
That's all I have.
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:1007496
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