Posted by floatingbridge on May 22, 2011, at 16:24:09
Most people would be pleased to travel to somewhere like Hawaii.
As the days draw closer to departure, oh boy, I just battle with myself. Every maladaptive behavior screams at me. It is utterly ridiculous, yet it is.
I can't decide if I want to go. No, I've decided I don't want to go, but my family does. Once I get there, even just get to the day of driving to the airport, I'll be alright. I'll have a good time, even, and all this anticipation will seem so unnecessary, which it is.
I don't know how to shake anticipatory dread. It can really throw a wrench in everything. It feels like overload.
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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