Posted by obsidian on September 6, 2010, at 21:29:46
In reply to My Story, posted by olivia12 on September 6, 2010, at 14:07:03
hello
I am so sorry about your loss, and the struggles you must be going through.
I have dealt most of my life with a tremendous amount of anxiety. I get depressed sometimes, sometimes very depressed.
It's a struggle for me to be around people in most situations. I have a hard time feeling safe and comfortable.
I grew up in a really chaotic home with parents who were violent toward one another and alcoholic. They are both pretty limited people emotionally. There was a lot of neglect. I was raised by wolves ;-)...just kidding, but that might've been nice.
I could go on about that, but it's an old story.
Mental illness is present in the gene pool of both sides of my family, whatever you want to call it, suicide attempts, psychosis, depression, hospitalizations, etc. - not everyone of course.
So I take medication because I'm looking for some stability, and a way to keep my anxiety at a manageable level.
I got to this site, I think, when I was surfing the net....maybe from depressioncentral.com??
I've been in therapy for over 10 years, looking for a group right now because I want to work on the social anxiety more, and of course the basic communication and relationship skills. Therapy has been rough, but I have benefited a lot from it.
So, I take effexor xr, lamictal, klonopin and seroquel. that's a lot of drugs...I can't believe I take it all. At this point I don't feel like I can get off of them.
I work full time, went through lots of school. It was a good time.
My name here is really 'sid', but that's a female sid :-).
I'd like to be a mom, one day, before it's too late.
so that's a part of the story...sorry you asked??
good luck to you olivia :-)
and take good care of yourself,
sid
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