Posted by cloudydaze on February 10, 2010, at 20:13:51
I feel like I need to learn apathy. I just need to not care about anyone anymore, except for my family and close friends. I just care way too much. I get attached easily. I have even freaked people out by acts of random kindness...and the guy i rather like right now...i think he's afraid to be with me because he's afraid of hurting me.
I can never have a relationship that works, because i'm too nice. How does that even make sense? So i've decided I need to stop being nice. Quit trying to help and take care of people...its not easy - i've just always done so.
Its just that sometimes I wonder if feeling nothing is better than hurting? I'm not sure if it is. I just know i don't want to hurt.
poster:cloudydaze
thread:936628
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