Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 24, 2010, at 22:44:15
I've changed a bit or more in some aspect's of viewing the world, I've just learned somethings that I thought where just cruel, I read some writings that gave an understanding. I've done something's in the past that where similar "who cried wolf?"
I'm want to start changing the view that humantity see's thought understanding of why emotions the way they are. What In life, i've failed at is coming up to other's expetation's. I admit that it was pure irresponsiblity, other's it was just "I could not understand what was being said". Write down things people say to you, and I know thatt's a self-defeating purpose if I apply that to myself because I've done things that are not up what my talk is, talk is cheap. The feeling of irrelevence is what overcomes me, then self-pity, then logic comes in...what should you do with what is going on. You don't need a therpist, yet there are good people that you sit down and talk to about issues in your life, but there are things that "drain" people of energy if you envoke drama, or anything that requires you to leave your state of peace to help this person. That person is then labeled a "leave me alone" person, once you know that you are one, re-do thinking and start using inner-logic to see how your projecting yourself to people. Go up to what you say, and also provide people with "presents" "benefits" people will come to you but know how to balance a relationship/s. There's a person that I know that I grew up with, yet I got removed because...."energy drain" [my brother] people don't want to see somethings, and they start to see what is going to benefit them, and what is not going to benefit them, and then selection comes along. Don't be hurt, instead openly know that you are disliked and move on, you cannot stop what people say/gossip/vanity about you through anger. There also is a person who people take there anger on, that is seen as a person that is vunerable, watch out and be ready to defend yourself quickly to things your accused of because there alway's is gossip of bad, negative things people talk. People can associate bad things they link themselves into someone's case and have a negative view of both that person, and the problem the person see's in themselves, but that's only a view of mine. Also, be one defense of people who know how you act and think, rotate and dodge their attacks of insults of what an idiot [x is], be on a rotation to dodge and question everything that people judge of you.
There are so many things I've have written and I've said "hippocrite", instead of making self-defeating concept's, just being an idiot. People sometimes can sniff you and smell "idiot" and the word get's out....
Ugh, Well i tried my best to help, so if someone reads this....best to you.
I still have bad images of myself inside, and some of this is to help myself but I want to be similar to a socal worker online, i'm still persueing my destiny to be a actor, anything to dodge irrevence that I've thought in myself in the past.
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:934929
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