Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 23, 2009, at 21:59:37
You know, how can you get out of enviorment that is "toxic". I know that I'm sittin here yabbering about how bad it is here, it's because there is no more love. It's hard to keep a job because I cannot be on focus medication, and this is serious and the person that I live with, one thing just kinda controls things and doesnt love back.
Times where not like this back in time, they where better and I think you reap what you sow, and maybe the thing's that I sow'd where bad things.What I need is support, and I just cannot cope like a human being could, and many times someone has implied suicide [not directly], yet I'm glad i didnt listen. This is like betyal, this person loved me and it's like I don't see this person anymore of times in the past.
I have a doctor's visit tommrow, and I hope just for once I can be on focus medication one more time, it's just an adversity that I live with here at the house, it was once "love" and support, now it's prideful and judgemental, and I can't justify things because they already labeled me as something, and if I say anything to argue, they refuse to agree, it pride, and I hope the spirit of leaves.
i'll post back.
rj
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