Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 30, 2009, at 20:34:36
Sometimes the only way to get to know people is thought writing it out. Life right now, sometimes I don't want to be awake, rather be uncousious because of the negative feelings, and actions, and punishment's that have happened. Home, I should of left here long ago and found a room buddy, i held back, but it's all a comfort safety zone, because once i've left it before and I got vunerable to life...semibreakdown. Kinda saying my heart is broken because of me, alot of people get repelled say "yuk" who cares? yet I have to find something in life, someone that know's me, i've been "put away", the last active years of life where 2004-2006. After that it went downhill. It's the belief that you hopeless. Have to fight it. I'm going to be really discreet, because I don't want to regret a post. Just I live with someone that control's me and i'm under a hook of steel, like trying cut steel, you can't with steel, have to have the big mama tool's to do it. That's like both two sissors fighting eachother, each one will wear out. And i think this is what has happened in this situation (of my life).
Best support needed, give it a try.
Later Folks...
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:919198
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