Posted by Dinah on August 29, 2009, at 8:11:28
In reply to Re: Interested inquiry » Dinah, posted by Deneb on August 28, 2009, at 17:24:33
Well, I think I was thinking more about *why* you suddenly were obsessing about ordering drugs with such intensity.
And I found your recent post titles and themes an interesting pattern:
"Wannanorexia"
"I feel like taking drugs"
"I need to drink more alcohol"
"I think I'm going to run" I'm going to run as hard as I can and see if I faint. brb
Taken as a whole, don't they seem to be interesting in terms of spanning a range of issues that have often met with similar responses from others? Eating disorders, substance abuse, health problems, and then the expression of thoughts about wishing you would die.Certainly I believe you when you say that you posted because you wanted help in feeling this way. But isn't it possible that you want help about something more systemic than any one of those posts alone?
To be clear, I'm not being at all judgmental. To me, your posts weren't upsetting and they didn't make me angry. But I perceived an interesting pattern, and wanted to share it with you.
Did you obtain your goal of having people yell at you and talk you out of ordering drugs? I have, on occasion, called my therapist and asked him to tell him it mattered to him if I did something self destructive. Not in the "I'll be angry with you if you do this way" but in the "If you hurt yourself, it hurts me, because I care about you." sort of way. I also on occasion call him to order me to do something like walk away from the computer. Although I suppose that only works because of the power differential between us.
There's nothing wrong with that, although there may be ways to phrase the subject line to achieve that goal along with others you've expressed.
However, if you'd have wanted input from your pragmatics buddy, you'd have likely contacted your pragmatics buddy. :) It is quite unpragmatic of me to press you. I'm sorry if I intruded.
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