Posted by Garnet71 on April 18, 2009, at 20:09:32
Well I had taken a break after the ex., but I'm starting to be interested in men again. I really miss masculine affection.
Some of my friends are out tonight at clubs, but I couldn't get myself to go. I don't know, just thought there's too much on my mind and thought I wouldn't have that much fun. Lacking motivation here. And I'd having nothing to wear. And I can't afford to get my hair done. And I have no money.
How is it possible to have friends and still be lonely? What I'd really like to do tonight is just light candles all over the house and cuddle with someone all night long. And talk, and have sex, and play around...Then cuddle all night long. And not get out of bed in the morning. I miss sleeping on a man's chest.I always sleep on my side cuddled up to my bf, arm around him, leg wrapped around him, with my head rested on his chest. That's my favorite way to sleep.
There's this man who works at the grocery store I frequent that I think is really really sweet and sooo cute. He makes the pizzas and stuff behind the counter at the wood-fired oven. He was working tonight, and I had thought about going over and ordering something to talk to him, but changed my mind. I did catch him smiling at a little girl tonight. He has a prosthetic arm, and I wonder if he got hurt in the war. When he first started working there, he seemed to have a lot on his mind. He seems a lot happier now. I have that connection feeling when I see him.
Does everyone do that? I mean, do you pick people out and see something special in them, or have a connection type feeling with total strangers? I do that all the time. Not as much lately as I used to, but I am starting to do that again.
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