Posted by TexasChic on April 13, 2009, at 20:49:21
I've had my ups and downs there, but this was the first time I actually thought, "Maybe this isn't the place for me". Of course, I don't know how much has to do with my lack of meds, and in retrospect that may have had something to do with my extreme feelings today. But basically, I had a really messed up job, and I spent so much time trying to make it right, only to keep getting negative feedback from all directions. Then my nerves got the better of me and I started screwing up. Then I tried to fix things before anyone knew I had screwed up. Then I screwed up even more. I finally got it finished, but by then I was way behind when we were already way behind. So my supervisor did a lot of sighing and totally exasperated looks before taking some of my work to do herself, which is when I finally started crying. I don't THINK anyone noticed though, which is good. I just kept going, and by the end of the day my supervisor was all nice again and talking about how this and that and other things out of our control made us behind. But I was still really frustrated, and I know tomorrow will be a tough day as well.
Anyway, I'm really too tired to explain this well, but one thing I've noticed is my supervisor has this thing about being overly dramatic and making herself seem so-o-o indispensable. She also goes out of her way to show how SHE WASN'T WRONG, which can be irritating, especially when she WAS wrong!
People can be so irritating. I wish I could work with animals or amoebas or something. Okay, so I don't know what amoebas are, but they sound better than people right now!
-T
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