Posted by Noa on July 1, 2008, at 13:50:55
In reply to Re: I'm back, posted by Dinah on July 1, 2008, at 8:06:57
Thank you, both.
This job loss is really devastating. It just happened. I don't know what I'm going to do now. And how I can do an interview and let them know that it wasn't my choice to leave the previous job. I can't lie. To say I left without another prospect would also make me look totally questionable.
I don't understand their reasons. The only thing I know is that I've done a terrible job of advocating for myself all along, as they nitpicked away and ran up a list of supposed failings, none of which are about the core of what I do. Tons of people in my organization came by my office when they found out and told me how much they value my work, my professionalism, my skills, etc.
I consulted a lawyer, and he said what I thought he would say--that there is no legal recourse. Employers with at-will contracts leave employees with no protection whatsoever. They don't even have to really have a reason to not renew my contract. But in the human world, everyone's perception is that if someone's contract isn't renewed there must have been a good reason. This casts a shadow on my professional reputation.
And they told me about it at a time when it's past the season for hiring everywhere. There are no jobs. And even if there were, there aren't any that come close to paying what I was making. I feel paralyzed. I can't stop crying.
As for the suicidal thoughts--well, the thing is that one of the things that would keep me from acting on it is that my house is a total mess and I would never want to subject anyone else to having to deal with it! A bit of ironic protection, I guess. Of course, now that I have nothing else to do, I have the time to clean up. Another thing that would stop me is that I don't have a will & trust done, so I would need to do that first and of course don't have the emotional resources to deal with doing that.
This job loss is just catastrophic for me. I was starting the process of applying to adopt a child and now that has to go on hold because I have no job. And I'll probably age out of elegibility by the time I do find a job.
Noa
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