Posted by your#1fan on March 24, 2008, at 22:31:07
Well you guys the last 3 years i tried to make myself something......you know what happened. I landed right on my freaking face, knowing all the fakeness to cover up hurt and feel it with diffrent ego's has been to shreds, its gone, i dont feel anything about myself. I always feel good and content about myself, i dont anymore, i've lost control because something serious happened in life.
I feel no goodness about myself, i feel such shame, i have this Asperbers crap, and i do have it i know for a fact, because i just stare sometimes and not know what to talk about. Right now i feel so, im lost......nothing in my life is going right, well there are some goodthings happening, all my hopes and dreams went down the drain i had for myself. Complete (closet) breakdown, i just want control.
Its call what you have called a big blown crash of your dreams ever happening.....
I hate my life at times, really i feel so bad right now, im being upfount with my feelings with you. I dont feel much about myself at all, its all gone down the drain, i have no self.
Idenity crisis happening......
Danmmit why was i born like this? i almost want to say i hate my life, but i dont, but i do. At least can go at sleep at night and imagine what i want to be, the rest.....it's R.I.P
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