Posted by Kath on January 4, 2008, at 10:15:54
In reply to Re: An unwelcome New Year's stress » Kath, posted by Phillipa on January 3, 2008, at 21:45:28
Sigis - good points.
Lovelorn - I've been to an NarAnon meeting, but it's a bit far & I didn't find that particular one very good. Might try an AlAnon one, although there's something else to deal with now.
Phillipa - thx will convey that to Jay & try to drink fluids & rest but NOW.....last night my son was over to sleep here & was REALLY distracted & finally said he wanted to talk to me...said he has been feeling so awful for a couple of months about what a mess he's made of his life & what a bad son he is etc.
Then it came out that he's been hearing the voices telling him that if he doesn't kill himself, they'll kill him & his family...that they were even telling him quietly while he was in our house. For him it is REAL. I told him that I don't hear them...that I DO believe he hears them. I said, bottom line, my stand is that I don't want to lose him & my choice is to take the chance on 'going out together' if it comes to that! I checked with eye contact if he believed me & he did. It was so heart-wrenching 'cuz he said, "well, Mom this might be our last night. I love you." He was sleeping in the rec room downstairs & accepted my offer of he setting up my camping bed on the floor beside the sofa.
Needless to say I didn't get much sleep as I guess I'm in shock.
I think that over the holidays he's had alot happening that could let the psychosis return:Lack of sleep
Not taking his prescription meds (seroquel & risperidone) every single day
Using ecstasy & ketamine more frequently or more of it & drinking more
Not eating right
Not having the focus of job - even though it is new, I think it was a positive focus for him.
So we have an appointment with his mental health worker at Noon. Son is still sleeping now. Worker said she's going to talk with him about going to hospital today & see what they say.
I don't know if he'll be willing to miss work...on the hand, I don't know if he'd be able to concentrate on work. (Before I knew about the voices) he was having trouble concentrating on playing Scrabble last night. But maybe cooking - doing something physical would be different.
SO - that's my situation to help with.
I called a crisis line this morning when the shock wore off & the tears & feelings came up. Crying helped a bit. They asked me to call back later & let them know what happened. That felt nice.
love to all, Kath
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