Posted by Michael83 on October 8, 2007, at 4:52:01
I just had a bad dream, the sort that made me feel guilty (I don't control my dreams, they're random) and feel like God would be angry with me for having such a dream.
I then woke up in one of those "why am I here?"-type-moods. I hate asking myself these questions and I hate being in this state of mind. It feels like it's impossible for me to ever get out of this mood, although I know I always do. Really strange. I just don't understand life. It's like we just show up here. I have a few other feelings like that which make me shiver with nervousness.
But I then feel like if I didn't have these questions about life, I would just be mindlessly going through life. Something about that makes me feel wrong. So it's a lose-lose type situation. =(
Maybe I need to go back to bed, it's the early AM. I'll feel better in the morning. I'm sorry for bothering everyone, writing on here when I'm feeling like this helps me a lot. This is a small panic attack, but overall I'm doing better and having less of these.
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