Posted by Jay on April 6, 2007, at 12:47:55
I am so sorry for for being absent for the past while. I still lurked, but just felt I had nothing to contribute. My depression was REALLY holding me hostage, along with it's buddy, major and social anxiety. So, I've now had to combat it only one way..I take 3 of the last 3 antidepressants that have helped me...and two of the last antipsychotics, and a benzo. It keeps me 'afloat'. I will stay with this for a month or two, then look at trying a 'process of elimination'...eliminate one....see what happens. If no good, go back, and move to eliminate next, etc.
I had a bit of a run-in yesterday. I was coming out of a plaza, by a beer store, and this young punk comes barrelling in, almost hits me. He veered into my lane, and was in the wrong. I slammed my brakes on, got out, so did he, and the first thing I did was shove him so far f*cking back I think he regretted this. He was calling me a fat big, blah blah..I'm just a big guy at 6 foot and a hulk-like built.(OKAY..maybe exaggerating..lol.) He went running back into his little car...wahhh wahhh..moommy. But it shook me up, because I am a very peace-loving person. Last time I hit a guy, I was in Grade 4. I was just sick....sick of a world full of rude bullies, "me me me me me" types, self-righteous types, war-lovers, etc. I think I was also really scared that I knew I could do some serious damage to this guy, but I did not want to go to jail, or have a police record. I work in social services, and at all of my jobs, I need a clean record.
Well...'tis my week so far. Hey, Lar H and I are likely going to see Rush in September in Toronto at the Air Canada Center. Their new album "Snakes and Arrows" is amazing, and it's not officially out yet, but I got to hear a couple of songs. The one is in my title of the post.."We Hold On". Wait until I get and put up the lyrics for this...a gem indeed. This album is HEAVY...their heaviest for sure. But there are also a lot of beautiful melodic moments, especially on a song that sums up how I feel about mental health in general, called "Hope".
Still, no girlfriend. A few close calls, but I think I weird 'em out too much..haha. Peace...Jay
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