Posted by Kath on April 2, 2007, at 17:03:52
In reply to Re: Feeling sorta down » Kath, posted by Gee on April 2, 2007, at 15:33:10
It feels nice to check in here & read your posts!!
I smiled at the Monday requirement!!! Yes, I guess Mondays aren't the most cheerful day!
It's not snowy here. It's hovering around 11 degrees, so it's not terribly cold, but it was in the mid to high teens (not 20!!!!) so having it get colder is hard. From 20 to snow is a shocker alright.
Flowers are coming out though. I have snowdrops, some pretty small yellow daisy type flowers & some dark purply blue ones are starting to pop up; just buds at this point. I think they're called scilla.I'm feeling confused at my emotions. Just talked with my son. His GF, is still in BC & had kept putting off coming back. She'd promised to be back for his birthday Mar 31st. For a few days the number he had for her out there was out of service. Then she text-messaged him her new number. When he called she still wasn't coming back. She's been on again/off again & really (in my opinion) messing around with his head.
ANYway, today she again text messaged him NOT to call her. He's been calling her daily....said to me that he hasn't been able to let go. So he did call her & she said that she loves A (the 'friend' she went back to see).
SO - the confusing part is this:
She's been doing crystal meth. I had WANTED her to say something so mean to my son that would help him let go.
So now she's saying don't call, I love this other guy. And now I'm FURIOUS!!!!
I generally think of myself as a nice person. Here I'm feeling Fury & Hate & Anger!!!
Yet I WANTED her to end it!!! ???
Maybe I'm feeling the anger at her that she messed around with him for so long & then finally said it's over??
I also suspect that part of my feelings are triggered about my ex leaving me. There was a parallel in that he was on again/off again.
Anyway, I suppose the good thing is that hopefully now my son will be able to start going forward in his life instead of obsessing about her coming back.
Tomorrow I go to see a doctor (medical doc) who does therapy & it's covered by OHIP. I'm REALLY excited. I feel like I really need once a week therapy. So many feelings are being stirred up due to my son's situation. This doc has a waiting list of almost 2 years!!! I hope I like her & I hope she's good!
Kath
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