Posted by DannaB on January 31, 2007, at 19:03:01
I have treatment resistant depression/dysthymia that's made worse by some interpersonal difficulties and negative thinking patterns. My mood varies from somewhat low to darn low. I also feel irritable, although my doctor seems to think my irritation isn't unreasonable.
I have a psychiatrist--a resident--who I trust him 100%, and I am someone who always doubts people. I know that he's dedicated to helping me, and he's always been consistent and caring. However, we have struggled with medication. It seems like no medications work for me and when they do I have side effects that I can't tolerate (extreme weight gain and total anorgasmia). The drug that helped me the most was Celexa.
My doctor seems to feel that medication isn't going to be the answer for me, since they either don't work or I experience intolerable side effects.
My problem right now is that my mood is TERRIBLE! There are things that are bothering me: I'm in school but feel I have chosen the wrong career...I am breaking up with my boyfriend (*no doubt* due to the depression causing me to act needy and difficult), but it's not just these things. My MOOD is awful. When I wake up I have to drag myself out of bed. There is nothing I enjoy, I have no hobbies, I'm quite isolated and have a hard time making and keeping friends. When I think about these things my eyes fill up with tears.
I will talk to my doc about this tomorrow, but I just don't know what to do next. Medication hasn't worked in the past...why will it now? I can go on Celexa again but I'm no doubt going to have the same problems as before. I can try another medication, but I've tried most of them already and basically nothing works. Where should I go from here?
poster:DannaB
thread:728544
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