Posted by cubic_me on January 30, 2007, at 14:08:32
In reply to Re: How much do you share with friends?..cubic_me, posted by Jo U.K on January 29, 2007, at 8:54:50
> Actually CM, having read your post I realised that I dont share the stuff about my medical/psych issues very well at all. I am a talker, I can chat for hours, but my most recent probs I only told my husband about, and even then only 3 weeks after it started. I think this is because I find it terribly hard to admit to the world at large that I am anything other than strong and capable. I cant bear anyone to think of me has having 'flaws'. I guess I'm too proud. It's even hard to admit it here.
Although I'm not a "talker" I can relate to that, I don't want people know know I'm not independent and strong. I don't say much on here compared to the amount going on in my head, probably because of the same fears.
>I couldnt bear my mother in particular to know what really goes on. I couldnt stand the fuss and worry.One of my reasons "against" suicide is the my parents would find out about the real me - a thought too scary to contemplate, though I'm not really sure why.
>My close friends dont know either. Oh dear, I am so not the person I try to be. They wouldnt think any less of my I'm sure. I dont know.....
> JoI don't think they'd think any less of you either. And I don't think my friends would. Perhaps when you're so used to not telling them, it becomes a big deal to tell them and just 'not what you do', so you never consider doing it, or alternatively you think up every reason under the sun not to talk to anyone!
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