Posted by Rjlockhart on November 7, 2006, at 19:33:00 [reposted on November 8, 2006, at 22:42:17 | original URL]
I dont know, i have been putting on a frount lately that everything is ok. I look really good today, i look sleek, but inside im screaming. I feel im going mad, everything is coming at once.
I think i "throw myself" on to people blasting them with all my life problems. It just depends on the person, but logically people dont really want to hear you problems exept thepists.
I am so miserable. God what can anyone offer me? Life coping Skills? I cant go back on psychostimulants, i dont know Strattera? i went on that and it made me mad. Wellbutrin made me crazy.
2nd of all, well i just want to just go in a room and just scream, but that would not do any good exept giving me a sore through, which lately i have noticed people are have the cold.
What do you think when you see a person rubbing hands anginenst there face, thinking of misery, like my face right now feels im very unstable.
What is happening. I cant focus, i cant think, well i can but when i do think its bad, and makes its even worse, so what else can i say.
So much mindless chatter inside my head im going mad. I do not have schizophrenia, even though i want to go just away for a while.
Dammit i feel so unstable, i feel i have to be in a safe place, i have bad coping skills, i lose things, i live in a home that is toxic and right now i i dont have enought money to get out.
I have to vent, there is no one vent to, if i vent to myself i go insane. I dont know am i insane? am i going insane? I HAVE asked this question so many times. I FEEL i am, this unstablness feeling.
Im getting ready to go to a social i dont want to go to because i may say something that should not be said, i say provactive things when im very unstable. Or i just dont talk.
I cant make friends when im like this.
Matt
poster:Rjlockhart
thread:701854
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