Posted by llrrrpp on September 11, 2006, at 10:13:34
In reply to are you left scratching your head?, posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
>ll - if you are reading this. A thought re "honesty".... sometimes details might be changed slightly on the internet for privacy reasons (obvious) and also if unsettled by certain dynamics. I don't expect this makes much sense so I will stop here. You are very perceptive though although you don't know me well :p
>Posting here is risky for me.... posting anywhere is risky. I know there are some who judge and enjoy doing so..... not here, just in life. As for automatic thoughts of being judged? I have those but not so much as I used to. I will never understand some people however much I try, so I have to learn to accept and let go.... hard for me! "
risky for me too. risky for all of us, in our own special ways. sometimes not posting is riskier, and sometimes, I just don't care about the risk. I tend to be more paranoid when I'm more depressed. I get convinced that pdoc and T are sending an ambulance to pick me up in the middle of the night, so I better wear clean underwear. How f*cked up is that?
I'm sorry to hear about lack of T support. That's really tough. I'm glad you're here for babble-support. Keep posting. Don't worry so much about what others will do to you, or will think of you. Come here to heal YOU. That's the best advice I have for you. Oh, and maybe you can get together with people in real life. Also hard to do, but once I started getting slightly less paranoid, I confided in one person, and that didn't cause the world to crash, so I confided in another, and then another. It's okay, really.
I'll be around. sporadically, but you never know...
best,
-llp.s. it's raining here. ugh.
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