Posted by Dinah on September 7, 2006, at 11:25:15
I find my right fist tightly clenched. And my mind filled with thoughts that I'm just not going to make it. I just can't go on. And more specific images of how not to go on.
Then, as the day wears on, I shake the thoughts and feelings, and feel ok. More anxious than usual, but ok.
Then the next morning, I wake up thinking the same thoughts and with the same marks in my palm where my nails dug in.
I just can't figure out where the thoughts are coming from. I've labelled them as intrusive thoughts, and try to dismiss them. But when I first wake up, they don't feel like intrusive thoughts. They feel like my own thoughts that I believe.
poster:Dinah
thread:683958
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