Posted by cloudydaze on July 22, 2006, at 15:25:57
In reply to ok, possible triggers: rape, suicide, posted by jpj on July 22, 2006, at 1:24:54
I feel your pain - although my situation is different from yours.
My attacker was never found, and they dropped the case. I don't know how I would feel if I was in your shoes. I do wish that justice had been served.I know you feel bad, but don't beat yourself up. None of it is your fault, and none of it was in your hands. He made his own decisions.
Sometimes I feel depressed because of other's suffering - even people I don't know (I find it hard to watch the news, because it hurts so bad)...but we need to realize that it is not in our hands.
You are a remarkable person for wanting to ease their pain - that seems so selfless to me. But perhaps it's a bit too selfless. You are in pain too.
(hugs)
> i was drugged and repeatedly raped by a young man last year.
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> he recently (while in jail for unrelated charges) killed himself.
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> i feel relieved.
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> and like justice dogged him, even though i have no clue why he committed suicide, as i have not kept up on this person's life.
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> his parents (i'm told) are taking it quite hard -- big guilt trips on themselves, they had disowned him for his many and horrid transgressions, they were not even aware he was a rapist.
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> the thought of letting them know (HANG ON NOW!) gets batted around in my head.
> I WILL NOT, though;
> do not want to add to their pain
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> but, you know, i wish it could ease some of their guilt.
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> (long sigh)
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> just some thoughts i needed to express somewhere.
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> not willing to debate
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> but feedback, of course, is in your hands.
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