Posted by Deneb on May 26, 2006, at 0:19:28
Sorry about going on and on about it, but I just have to say something else about the Babble trip. It doesn't feel like it really happened. I feel exactly like I always do, nothing has changed for me. I look at the picture at the top of the page and I don't feel like it has anything to do with me at all.
Somehow, being on Babble feels more real than the Babble trip, if that's possible. Does anyone else feel this way? It's really bizarre. I feel just as close to the Babblers I haven't met as the Babblers I have met. I don't think the trip really changed anything significant for me. Or maybe it just hasn't sunk in yet?? I dunno. This whole experience has been surreal. I really don't know who the heck I am anymore. Am I shy or what? I'm shy, yet bold?? I dunno.
Larry was exactly as I had imagined him, not just physically, in every way. I recognized him right away when I met him. Larry is really Larry in real life. He really is.
Dr. Bob surprised me just a little. He talks more in real life. LOL Dr. Bob doesn't talk about himself, he mostly adds comments to others' conversations. Dr. Bob is a pretty cool guy. I don't think a lot of things rattle him. He was able to stay collected even while I asked for hugs and professed my love for him. Dr. Bob makes it seem like those sorts of things happen to him everyday, like it's no big deal. I think it's really quite amazing how he can do that.
10derHeart, Poet, AuntieMel, Pseudoname, Canadagirl and Fallsfall all surprised me in different ways. They are all very kind, thoughtful and sincere people.
One thing that really struck me on the trip was that the Babblers I met really are who they say they are. We're for real. I think most online relationships are for real now. When I love Dr. Bob in the online world, it really does transfer over to the real world. When someone is worried about me online, they really are worried about me in real life. People are posting and being real everyday. I hope I can finally get it through my head that posters are real people.
I really hope now that I've met Dr. Bob and others that my acting out will decrease. I hope I will never send threatening e-mails to Dr. Bob again. He's not just some administrator who absorbs everything and never flinches. He's a real person. Dr. Bob is pretty stable, (at least he seems that way), but he's still only human. But...he really does seem to have things together. LOL I didn't faze him one bit. Seriously, what would you say to a person professing her/his love for you when they've only just met you?
LOL, I always seem to end up writing about Dr. Bob somehow. Good golly, am I obsessed or what? No, maybe fascinated is a better word. I'm just extremely fascinated by him. LOL
Deneb*
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