Posted by Declan on April 4, 2006, at 14:52:08
In reply to Re: I had no human contact in over 2 years. » Declan, posted by john berk on April 4, 2006, at 7:45:00
I really admired her I guess. She had been dragged along to church and was radiating scorn. The sign of peace? I think I'd rather a service where people turned to each other and said 'I will show you fear in a handful of dust'.
I always seem to do the opposite of what I want in these situations. That is, if faced with someone I want to hug, I won't, but if faced with someone I don't much care for, I might. I'm not sure what's going on in my mind then. Maybe I'm very uncertain and adopt one set of rules with another qualifying set above, usable in certain instances, maybe going up in a series (When my brain was in better shape, I had a clearer idea of these details). In this way I can sometimes get really paralysed, being very worried about making mistakes. You know if you're in a bad space and can't walk past a dog in the street? Not that you're frightened of it (not in the normal way), but just that the procedures for passing the dog are inneffective, and the frightful moment arrives when it is clear to you that you have failed to walk past the dog but are running into it. Is this what people call OCD?
Declan
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