Posted by James K on March 17, 2006, at 13:36:20
In reply to Re: Find another place - STAT » James K, posted by AuntieMel on March 17, 2006, at 12:18:34
Can you imagine what it must be like to live with me? Well, my wife has decided to take all the contradictory drunken instructions and decisions I make, and just go by the ones that make sense. So she didn't tell me last night, because I was busy not drinking, but she talked to the head of the major med center teaching hospital that has been my pdoc twice before, and he works with the major national place that doesn't take currently crazy abusive detoxers, because they affiliated with the other major med center teaching hospital that hasn't completely split off yet. (makes sense?)
If I come in his small ugly little upstairs hallway for detox and stabilization, he can get me into the nice big place on a transfer. I like this guy a lot. He's one of the few pdocs I've had that can get past the exterior to see the intelligence behind. So, the on again and off again saga is back on.
I know I need help. I can't go to work like this, I doubt I can stay sober throught the weekend. Just bad business all around without this real last attempt to get straight and medicated and deal with the fact that my past is my past but doesn't have to rule my future.
Whether you, AuntieMel, or the others realize it, you aren't wasting your time pushing me. I need the voices in my ear telling me what is best. What I know and want change daily. I guess that's a symptom. (of something)
James K
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