Posted by stickywicket on March 15, 2006, at 7:42:16
I bet one of my problems is one that many others wouldn't mind having....nothing to do at my job. I have a desk job and my work is largely dependent on what is given to me to do. It's a 40 hr/week job. Most days I probably work less than 2 out of 8 hours. The rest of the time I try to find things to occupy me to look busy (surfing the Net mostly). I really can't quit because the pay and benefits are just too good, and because of my mental illness, the stress of a new job would be overwhelming.
I'm Bipolar II (mostly depression), OCD, social anxiety, panic disorder. You might think that having all this spare time would cause less stress considering my dx, but actually not being busy so much is making things worse. My OCD has me researching and researching on the Net about my symptoms and diagnoses. I've created freakin manuals on what I've researched. It's gotten out of hand. I get anxious trying so hard to look busy. I know they like me here because I'm very efficient and conscientious; I've always gotten good reviews and increases.
What would you do in my shoes?
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thread:620521
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