Posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 19:22:28
In reply to I need some motivation, posted by Deneb on March 9, 2006, at 15:59:56
I hate this so much, this procrastination. It's overwhelming. I feel like I need to escape. I want to escape. I don't know what to do. I've ruined my life.
I wish I won the lottery and can just travel the world and not worry about anything. I don't want to face my life. I hate this so much.
I don't want to face things. This is horrible. I don't think school is for me. I should like school, not avoid it.
Who am I kidding? I can't handle the stress. I need to get a job with very few responsibilities and very little stress. I can't handle challenges.
I have to make sure I go to class tomorrow. I can't skip anymore. I have to force myself to go to class.
I can't handle life. I don't know what I'm going to do about my future. I don't want to think about it. I've ruined everything. I hate what I've become. What is wrong with me? Why can't I just study?
I can't handle life. Too much responsibility. I'm not doing so well right now this minute. It's too overwhelming. I've ruined my life. I'm trying to express myself right now without being triggering. I hate my life. I hate it. I hate who I am. I hate this so much. I can't stand it? Why can't I just study? Why can't I be a normal person? I've ruined everything. I'm going to fail everything. I'm failing in life. I don't know what to do to make things better.
I feel bad. I think I'll go knit my Bob scarf. I want to feel warm feelings. That will make me feel better, hopefully.
Deneb*
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