Posted by Deneb on March 7, 2006, at 19:31:40
In reply to Re: How it went » Deneb, posted by LegWarmers on March 7, 2006, at 19:01:30
> > The meeting itself wasn't so bad. I was pretty composed and confident even though I made a fool of myself.
>
> so? why are you beating yourself up?I don't know, I just am. I'm mortified. I can't stand it. I keep thinking and sighing and thinking and sighing. I just want to turn my brain back to the calm and happy setting.
> > I can't even order coffee right. Please, someone for the BabbleParty, order my food for me.
>
> How do you mean you can't order a coffee?It's just too embarrassing for words. I misread the menu.
>there is nothing wrong with ordering wrong, or mixing up your order, or even spilling your order on the guy who you met for coffee! Everyone does it!
I know it should console me a bit, but it doesn't. :-(
> > I had a bad session with my tutor. I seriously think he laughs behind my back now.
> >
>
> and if he does?I can't say the thought that crosses my mind without being triggering.
>I doubt he does, most people are fairly intune to when a person is being themselves or if they are affected by stress.
I just can't deal. I just can't.
> Im sure he figured you were either tired, or under pressure
I'm sure he figured out I'm "not quite right".
> the fact that you got into university is a sign you arent too stupid for university.
I'm a fraud. I don't belong.
> why? you did something incredibly brave today, you can tell all your other potential coffee dates that you are busy with school and will get back to them later. when something makes you anxious, it takes time to adjust to it without being anxious, don't give up, but put less importance on those people, no one is perfect
My coffee dates just keep piling up. I don't have the energy to reply. :-(
I feel horrible.
Deneb*
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