Posted by sleepygirl on February 22, 2006, at 22:44:30
You see I have been unemployed for a couple of months now. However, I may be employed again soon. I can't say it's a certainty though.
Well I've been going about my business at a sort of leisurely pace lately, and now I must submit myself again to the demands of other people, things, etc. I knew it would happen eventually.
I've gotten into some foul moods through this, really sort of depressed and desperate at times, feeling like there wasn't a thing I could do to change things. But sometimes I've enjoyed this ability to isolate, to have more control over my stimulation level.
Now I feel like a skydiver might feel just before they jump out of the plane, or like I'm about to jump into a river without knowing how fast the current is moving. It takes a lot of stamina and effort for me to deal with change. I'm afraid I don't like it all that much, but it would seem.....here I go again, deep breath, and go
I really wish I had a copy of "Oh the Places You'll Go" right now
poster:sleepygirl
thread:612278
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