Posted by NikkiT2 on February 4, 2006, at 8:46:33
So, we're now into February and this cloud of mine just isn't passing.. and everything is starting to feel so damned pointless.
but I'm too scared to go back to meds.. I'm too scared to admit to my family that I'm heading back to that point again (as was said to me yesterday by my mother when I said I was feeling tired and stressed.. "what have you got to feel tired and stressed about".. well, maybe having to leave for work at 7am, and getting home past 7pm, having more work than I can cope with or even focus on, having given up smoking amonth ago and finding it hard, not sleeping well and suffering bad bad dreams, living in a small crappy flat that has no room to breathe, and finding out that the procedure to reduce the chronic arm pain I have won't be done till atleast November, and having lost my Gran just over a week ago and going to her funeral yesterday.. but, no, nothing at all really..)
I don't want to face all those side effects from meds again.. I'm giving accupuncture a bash on Tuesday, but I can't afford to have it very regularly..
Where do I go now?
Nikki xx
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