Posted by rjlockhart on January 17, 2006, at 21:55:34 [reposted on January 18, 2006, at 21:36:51 | original URL]
I have not felt this way before, i just know that I am going to make it.
I .. I have been through so much chaos with overwhemlming though, Fear of what going to happen, what is wrong with me i sit spaced out with fear surrounding me.
First, i have been through growing not knowing, well the last year if im ok, you know.
Even right now im typing in a very still anxiety state, i feel i cant even move. Im afraid that what im thinking is not right, im thinking there is something wrong, im thinking that i feel im growing but afraid.
Im so scared right now that im going to crazy im paralyzed, im sitting so still looking at this screen, not knowing what is to happen.
Fear is many things, but it gets to a point where it is so intense it makes stillness.
I dont know, i just know that life is here, and im here. And i am going to make it.
Please pray i will go back to normal, please.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:600517
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