Posted by rainbowbrite on October 14, 2005, at 20:11:11
In reply to Re: Need to understand triggers and suicide, posted by alexandra_k on October 14, 2005, at 19:12:59
>(((Rainbow))) I’m sorry, I know this is a hard issue for you. It might help to think that sometimes when one is in a really bad space certain information can get forgotten. As a different example… Imagine that you are worried that someone doesn’t like you. They tell you (a couple times) that they do. But then you get depressed… And so… What they said before… Well… It kind of needs to be said again because it has been forgotten. I know that for me, my memory of events / things people have said / alternative ways of looking at the situation is very mood dependent. When my emotions get very intense… I can forget all kinds of stuff.
If I had to ask someone if they were my firned they wouldnt be my firend. Im not following, sorry
> It was just a favor, just a friendly request for a trigger without making a big deal of it.
I know this is hard for you… Maybe you had best avoid posts from Deneb that have a trigger warning on them and / or mention suicide in the subject header?I have been! there was no trigger to the post in question.
> I recall one post where you thought it was funny listening to the way some people tried to kill themselves. thats all.
Yeah. And joking about death isn’t allowed here. Deneb was warned for that – and she hasn’t done it again. I think… Maybe when she mentiones the topic now people tend to think of that other thread? And it calls some of those issues back for people.To me it feels like this is all a repeat over adn over agian but done with slightly differnet words.
This whole thread is about a bablmail that I sent Deneb. I was caught off gueard by something she posted. I ended up in tears WHILE on the phone sick to my stomach ----THERE WAS NO *** TRIGGER***. I thought my email was explaining to her WHY I had a hard time with certain things and I was under the impression that I was gently asking if she would mind putting triggers if certain things were mentioned (which I do not want to say) I cant believe I even read any more of this thread. I can't take it here right now. its too much. Things like this NEVER come up IRL. I dont have to worry about certain topics bringing up things I dont want to think about becasue of the intensity. And no amount of thereoay could make it any less painful. I can't expose myself to this. and tehn feeling ALL ALONE with it which I cant even explain. Its me, its just me, I never fully recovered from the last few threads like this, I should go talk to someonme about this. I take full resonsibilyt for my reactions BUT I was referring to a non triggered post. too sensitive...maybe? But this is a 'social board' ?
If Im an awful person, so be it. I felt I was qutie clear in my babblemail. I really want this to be put to rest now.
Im sorry everyoneDeneb forget I wrote you the babble mail, please, post whatever you want.
see y'all around
poster:rainbowbrite
thread:566599
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20051007/msgs/566971.html